moving up, moving on.

since my last entry i:

-moved to dc.
-worked as a keyholder at american apparel.
-quit AA and became the service manager at a new vegan restaurant.
-quit cafe green and am waiting to start a job touring for PETA.
-decided to move to braddock, PA in the fall to live with my best friends

im definitely going to keep a tour blog this summer, and it'll most likely be here.

stay tuned.

we'll fight. we'll win. we wont give in.

i don't live in iowa anymore. im not sure i live anywhere at all.
i have stories that i wont share, and a considerable lack of regret.

for now: braddock, PA. with my best friends on cold nights keeping eachother's hands warm and sadness at bay.
and then? perhaps baltimore. perhaps new york. perhaps touring. perhaps dying. i don't really have any sortof clue.

i'm coming to terms with getting older and growing up.
but i stand by my creedo that "all grownups iz pirates."

i'll meet you all again on your long journey to the middle.

i could go all night.

this was never supposed to be a personal blog. because really, who actually wants to know what goes on inside my head? i don't even. its neurotic, its dysfunctional, and mostly, its a stream of bad ideas one after another.

so im not going to share.

but i will talk about my rediscovery of my enjoyment of live music. being so broke the last few years, i've gone to next to no shows. I missed my favorite bands when they came through town, i missed seeing all the bands my friends started to love, and i fell completely out of touch with music... the one thing that really drives me. ive barely had a working computer the past few years, so even downloading albums was out. i survived on repeat play nights of old albums and wore them thin. Since moving here, despite still not having much money, i've been going to a ton of shows. i've been downloading music, talking about music, and writing music. and honestly, i'm far happier than i've been in a long time. its strange to admit that, seeing as how i never planned to like des moines. despite my inherently negative attitude i've found a lot to enjoy. maybe i'm just experiencing what everybody already knew about, or maybe i'm just at a point where i'll let myself be happy just a little bit. but no matter what it is, there is new music around me constantly, both in and out of my house, and im starting to notice my face being sore from the permanent smile plastered on it.

i'm aware of who i am, and i realize that this could change at any second. one false move and i'll be back to square one. but for now i'm really soaking it in, man.

words of wisdom from my roommate

ALL SAINTS DAY

comes out on my birthday. fuck yes.

if you got a throat, i got a knife

two nights ago i had more fun on a swingset than ive had in a long time. yesterday i drove a racist girl away from our table and out of the restaurant we were at. tonight i saw a big wiener that belonged to a strange drunk man while a hardcore band played in full hockey gear.

i feel like every time i leave my house i make a new friend. i'm not sure if its me, or if its just this place, but everyone has been so nice to me and so surprisingly genuine. its different than the east coast... not necessarily better, but it might be what i need right now.

its nice to feel like im not totally alone here. its nice to have life plans in the works, adventures to plan, and crushes to get excited about. im starting to have a life here, and from here on out its steady rollin'.

i wouldn't call this place home, but its certainly got my attention.

eastbound and down.

i don't really have any crazy stories or anything like that yet, sorry to disappoint. i'm still not really sure how or why i am where i am, but i guess it'll have to do. for the meantime, iowa is actually kindof cool. the people are nice, i live in an awesome house, and i have lots of time to focus on my own things. stay tuned for better posts.

but for now, check this out...